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Friday, October 1, 2010

Bye Bye Blondie.... Helloooo baby brownies and greys (with long promised pictures!)

Hello my Loyal Followers-
I'm still BUZZing and numb from the Neuropathy! uugghhh!! But that's to be expected with all the "high-dose" chemo I've survived to dominate myeloma!  Appt with a Neurologist this coming Wed.

And speaking of BUZZING, after finally accepting my blondies were history, I joined the shaved-buzzed crew on Friday Oct 1, 2010!
Finally let my son Scott buzz the last of my wispy blondies off, except for a few sparse bangs I had him preserve... just because!! Daughter Alissa had been after me for some time to shave, but I wanted to wait and see what "nature" had in store for me... and actually it was really interesting to see the new hair come in, as my original hairs gradually shedded out on their own. You know, I never did experience a full "bald" stage.

~ Gone is the remainder of the reminder of what my previous hair once was
~ Gone is the last of my hair that saw me through my initial treatments, endured my hospitalization with me, and then slowly fell out during my home recovery process
~ Gone is the last of my blonde hairs that so many previously complimented me on
~ Gone is the last of the hairs that were present prior to diagnosis
~ Gone is the last of (what was) my life-long blonde security blanket
~ Gone is the last of my "Blow, Glue and Go" style
~ Gone in June, my Palomino mane and tail
~ GONE is what I was attached to, but now actually FREED from !!

Hello to the new NO Maintenance, Wash and Stare at Hair, and full Freedom hair!

So... I tested out the new "Do" with a walk down the road after my buzz
And I think I caught a few drivers doing a "double-take", but not of the type I previously experienced...
I think the looks were of the: "Oh That Poor Lady" type of glance, but I didn't care! I felt a new freedom and I see my buzz and new hair to come, as symbolizing the success of all my treatments and Remission!!

I'm ok, REALLY I am! it's all been such an surreal adventure to me
For sure now, no day is the same
No event is the same
I get to experience a "new, re-invented me" almost daily!

HERE ARE PICTURES I've previously promised!!!! :) Thank you Tom and Lori for taking these great pictures (me in black T) and Thanks to Alissa and Scott for the others :)

Drum roll......
Introducing the "new" Julie !

 Oct 1, 2010
Wow! Look, my hair grew in FAST!
(Just Kidding! it's a really awesome wig!)
Thanks to Godiva's Wigs

Here's the buzz reveal... and that's not my doggie on my lap :)
We were at one of my first social outings and the beads were part of the event

 hahahaha what a profile!

Don't laugh, I saved a few "original" bangs for posterity!
Yes indeed, Chemo and Steroids contributed to the decline of my eyesight
But that's ok, glasses are my new jewerly


video
Alissa and I (attempting) to take a picture of me just after my buzz cut- hahaha I had the camera set on Video instead of snapshot. Thought it would be funny to insert here! Go us! Oct 1, 2010

And I thought I still had lots of hair!
Ha! who was I kidding!
But you can see the new hair underneath my last whispies
 Yikes! Now I know why everyone kept saying to BUZZ! eekkk !!!
Moments before my first buzz haircut 10.1.2010

 WOW how fast it's changing in color and thinness! 9.19.2010
Would you know it's ME if you came up behind me???

hahahaha and I thought I still had a lot of hair! 9.19.2010
Can't you tell I work out with Scott ALL the time! Just look at my steroid flabby arms!

Probably the most flattering picture of me ever!!! NOT!!
But I had to add it to the hair evolution pictorial

 Still had all this HAIR just a month ago at my last COH appt! 8.30.2010
Talk about a DELAYED chemo hair losing side effect!!!!

Not long after I returned home from City of Hope- early Aug. 2010
Even Vancomycin couldn't bald me

Day 2, City of Hope hospitalization- receiving first dose of Melphalan Chemo
with a lot of hair still (and a lot of steroid blub!) 7.3.2010


 Ssshheesshhhh I was soooo naive here! note the sign and elevators!
This was my moment of admission to City of Hope 7.2.2010
Little did I know what I was in for....

And for the finale'......
Me all bloated up from Steroids, May 2010
 Beachfront wedding.
What a wonderful pre-stem cell transplant event with my amazing family :)

Honestly......... I kinda like this freedom buzz cut! It's so easy ladies!!! Now I know why the guys want to buzz their hair all the time!!! Who knows........ I might just keep it BUZZED and you'll never know "who" I might show up as my wig store has some mighty-fine wigs ladies! All kinds of styles, colors, hi-lights, textures. FUN!!! No Kidding!!!!

As always, much loooooooove and appreciation for all your love, support, comments and loyal blog interest!
Just call me Mz BUZZ now! Buzzed hair and Buzzing extremities!

12 comments:

  1. Hi Julie, I lost my blonde straight hair after transplant too. I wore a wig and scarves when I went out of the house. It took about nine months for me to finally get enough hair to do something with. and now I have been growing my "new" hair out for nine months and I love it. It was quite a shock initially but talk about wash and wear! and the bonus for me has been I now have curly hair. My hair was always so straight before. It has been fun to finally have some curls. One of the few positives of Chemotherapy-(besides killing cancer :) have a good day and enjoy your new freedom. I'm sure you're good looks and great personality are still there!

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  2. I know what you mean about a security blanket. Mine had been long for about 20 years with one brief stint just below my shoulders to mostly towards my waist. I wouldn't have dreamed of going out for the night without it down. And now I love my short hair - it's so easy - it's not quite long enough to be a hair style yet! ;D

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  3. Julie you look really good....I remember "glue and go" now you can just go. See you soon!

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  4. So, I just go back the The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society Team-In-Training Hike Event Weekend... That's a mouth full! As I mentioned, I have been a mentor for the hike team for almost a year and we headed out to Mt. Zion in Utah. It was fun Julie! We had soooo many chapter from around the nation there. Collectively we raised over $500K! There were over 200 participants and we were all there to help and fight blood cancer. I will post pictures of my journey later. I have some wounds to tend too. No one ever said fighting cancer would be easy. Love ya. P.S. You look like you belong in the military. Tell you son to drop and give you 50.

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  5. Radar,

    With your short easy-to-care-for hair, you're just as beautiful as you ever were! I got a buzz cut myself in Arizona just to simplify things as much as humanly possible. And it worked! Nothing like a buzz cut to simplify your life!

    Hawaii next summer? Ha, ha, ha! Maybe we'll meet you there! We're seriously looking. You got any real plans yet?

    My best to Jim and Alyssa!

    Love you!

    Russ

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  6. Julie,
    You look AMAZINGLY beautiful with your new "do!" Thank you for sharing that personal yet courageous moment with us.
    Love you and miss you,
    Leslie C.

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  7. Gail IshimotoOctober 04, 2010

    Julie,

    I agree with Leslie. You do look beautiful. When I look at your photos what I see is a woman who is walking with grace and dignity through her life. That grace emanates from you.

    It was so awesome to see you the other day and I really appreciate your candor and generosity in sharing your journey with us.

    By the way you have a lovely family!

    Love you!
    Gail

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  8. Julie,I am amazed at your humor and strength.Your
    buzz cut looks great!!The good news for you is
    your hair will return.I can`t say that-So lucky
    you.Hope you have a good time in hawaii.We go every year.Seriously,you are are hankling this
    great and you will be back doing everything soon.

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  9. You look absolutely beautiful! Your hair is not what defines you, it is your unbelieveable courage and spirit and your wonderful sense of humor and bright smile. Your are an inspiration Julie and you were never more beautiful. It was great seeing you last week and I can't wait for your next visit.

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  10. Julie,

    Sorry I missed you at CCC last Wed. You look great! I like the buzz cut and think you wear it very well. It makes you look very artsy. I think you're doing fantastic with all that you've gone through. Just let me know when you're ready for another play date with Pawsy.

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  11. Julie,

    It's Joey Pouch Girl!!!!!!! I haven't been in town the last three weeks because I was finally healthy enough to go to Europe. It was definitely a trip I needed after all these years of fighting! I came back on Saturday and had my 7th clinical trial treatment on Tuesday, so far so good. I have been getting some cramps in my legs and tingling when I sleep and have to wake up and walk around for a bit. So I understand some of what you are going through. It's definitely not any fun. Hang in there and let me know what the doctor tells you! I am rooting for you!!!

    I love your new DO, you look BEAUTIFUL. I lost mine at least 4 times and twice my hair thinned. After awhile I actually liked getting new wigs with different styles and colors/shades. I could choose my ideal hair length and style!!! It was always difficult for me the first few times. American Cancer Society has a great "wig" program. I am sure you already know this. I enjoy reading your blogs.

    Hugs,
    Michelle

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  12. Hi Julie,
    I enjoyed reading your candid blog and feel like I can relate as I was diagnosed with MM in May. I expect to be doing the stem cell harvest and transplant after the first of the year. Thanks for sharing your experiences.
    -Amy

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My Story... How my MM was diagnosed

October/November/December 2009...

Most of my life I was VERY presumptuous about being healthy, taking my (mostly) GOOD health for granted...
I was committed to annual check-ups for all of us, and so late October 2009, my daughter and I went for our annual and very routine physicals.

Surprise, surprise... my routine blood tests revealed extreme Anemia, significant White and Red Cell issues, low Platelets, and a variety of other CBC red flags! I was (stupidly) not worried when my GP doc left repeated phone messages to contact him, and when we did speak, I (stupidly) requested postponement of his referral appointment to the Hematology Dept until the end of the Fall academic term.

Arriving for my first appointment Dec 14, 2009, I was confronted with the check-in sign that read: "Hematology/Oncology"... What? Nooooo! not me... I must be in the WRONG place! And so my diagnosis journey began with vials and vials of blood drawn "stat", urgent Dr consultations, a surprise and painful Bone Marrow Biopsy, a full body Skeletal Scan, more blood tests stat, and then on 12.30.2009... THE revealing meeting... the "huh-what" moment ... the confirmation diagnosis that I, Julie, have CANCER!!!

Happy New Year to me, I just learned a new vocabulary word:
Multiple Myeloma!!! MM, Multiple Mye-what-loma!!!

January - June 2010

My medical metamorphosis began.
I read, and read, and read and researched and researched MM. I trusted my expert Oncology/Hematology team's plan and began my "New Normal" as a cancer patient.
My treatment plan was developed to include powerful Dexemthesone steroids paired with Revlimid chemotherapy, with the plan to be hospitalized for an Autologous Stem Cell Transplant July 2010.

I began living "one day at a time" like never before.
Jim was a wreck. Alissa and Scott were stunned; family and friends shocked.

Me... Cowgirl Up! I got back in the saddle and knew I was in for the ride of my life!
I did well on my initial pill-form Revlimid Chemo, "roid-rage" Dex Steroids and other supportive meds. I am forever deeply grateful and appreciative for all the love and support from everyone in my personal and professional life! I thank all of you for working along with me, and allowing me to continue to lead a semi "normal" life!
YOU have helped save my life!

My treatment trail ride forks to City of Hope hospital as I will saddle up beginning June 9, 2010 for a new rodeo called an Autologous Stem Cell Transplant!
Ye-Ha, let the adventure begin!

Chemical Warfare...

January 2010 - May 2010:
My initial chemo regimen:

Pill form Chemo= Revlimid (10mg capsules)
Pill form Dexamethasone Steroids (40 mg!) paired with Omeprazole
Mepron (looks like yellow finger paint) Anti-fungal, Anti-viral, etc for my very compromised immune system
B-12- to build those cells!
.81 Aspirin to prevent DVT, Revlimid complications
Allopurinol- keeping the kidneys healthy
Acyclovir- anti-Shingles, anti-viral

June 2010:
High dose IV Cytoxan chemo
Neupogen to build up stem cells for Apheresis, stem cell harvest, which was very successful, as City of Hope was able to collect 9.5 million of my own stem cells

July 2010 Hospitalization:
Two days of high dose Melphalan chemo
Then July 5, 2010 = my Autologous Stem Cell transplant infusion!

And you can read my whole story from that point forward in this blog!


What is multiple myeloma?

What is multiple myeloma?

Cancer starts when cells in the body begin to grow out of control. Cells in nearly any part of the body can become cancer, and can spread to other areas of the body. To learn more about how cancers start and spread, see What Is Cancer?

Multiple myeloma is a cancer formed by malignant plasma cells. Normal plasma cells are found in the bone marrow and are an important part of the immune system.

The immune system is made up of several types of cells that work together to fight infections and other diseases. Lymphocytes (lymph cells) are the main cell type of the immune system. The major types of lymphocytes are T cells and B cells.

When B cells respond to an infection, they mature and change into plasma cells. Plasma cells make the antibodies (also called immunoglobulins) that help the body attack and kill germs. Lymphocytes are in many areas of the body, such as lymph nodes, the bone marrow, the intestines, and the bloodstream. Plasma cells, however, are mainly found in the bone marrow. Bone marrow is the soft tissue inside some hollow bones. In addition to plasma cells, normal bone marrow has cells that make the different normal blood cells.

When plasma cells become cancerous and grow out of control, they can produce a tumor called a plasmacytoma. These tumors generally develop in a bone, but they are also rarely found in other tissues. If someone has only a single plasma cell tumor, the disease is called an isolated (or solitary) plasmacytoma. If someone has more than one plasmacytoma, they have multiple myeloma.

Multiple myeloma is characterized by several features, including:

Low blood counts

In multiple myeloma, the overgrowth of plasma cells in the bone marrow can crowd out normal blood-forming cells, leading to low blood counts. This can cause anemia – a shortage of red blood cells. People with anemia become pale, weak, and fatigued. Multiple myeloma can also cause the level of platelets in the blood to become low (called thrombocytopenia). This can lead to increased bleeding and bruising. Another condition that can develop is leukopenia – a shortage of normal white blood cells. This can lead to problems fighting infections.

Bone and calcium problems

Myeloma cells also interfere with cells that help keep the bones strong. Bones are constantly being remade to keep them strong. Two major kinds of bone cells normally work together to keep bones healthy and strong. The cells that lay down new bone are called osteoblasts. The cells that break down old bone are called osteoclasts. Myeloma cells make a substance that tells the osteoclasts to speed up dissolving the bone. Since the osteoblasts do not get a signal to put down new bone, old bone is broken down without new bone to replace it. This makes the bones weak and they break easily. Fractured bones are a major problem in people with myeloma. This increase in bone break-down can also raise calcium levels in the blood. (Problems caused by high calcium levels are discussed in the section “How is multiple myeloma diagnosed?”)

Infections

Abnormal plasma cells do not protect the body from infections. As mentioned before, normal plasma cells produce antibodies that attack germs. For example, if you developed pneumonia, normal plasma cells would produce antibodies aimed at the specific bacteria that were causing the illness. These antibodies help the body attack and kill the bacteria. In multiple myeloma, the myeloma cells crowd out the normal plasma cells, so that antibodies to fight the infection can’t be made. The antibody made by the myeloma cells does not help fight infections. That’s because the myeloma cells are just many copies of the same plasma cell – all making copies of the same exact (or monoclonal) antibody.

Kidney problems

The antibody made by myeloma cells can harm the kidneys. This can lead to kidney damage and even kidney failure.