Can it really be?
In just a few days, it will be 6 years since my July 5, 2010 Stem Cell Transplant to save my life from Myeloma. Wow 6 years ago!
I was in such a naive, denial fog back then. Truly I really had no clue what my diagnosis really entailed, what I was in for regarding treatments, and how long this journey was going to last. I seriously thought I'd just get some chemo, loose some hair, suffer a bit, eventually be ok, and that would be that. Well that did happen... and life moved forward... but I really thought that would be it. I just didn't connect with my incurable diagnosis, and long term treatment life sentence.
Well here I am 6+ years later, still in this battle, still doing chemo, still losing my hair, and even more exhausted than ever, but more in touch than ever with what this cancer journey really is. It is forever. Myeloma is forever. Chemo is forever. Being in treatment is forever. A crazy lifestyle that I will never get used to. But so thankful I am here for my 6th Stem Cell Transplant Anniversary!
Reflecting on anniversary #6 sure makes me grateful and thankful to still be alive. Back in 2010, I think my statistics were quite grim. My doctors really didn't want to say what my timeline might be, but they did always refer to my case as "high risk". I'm pretty proud to be here 6.5 years later after diagnosis. So many I know through blogs, myeloma sites, support groups, the chemo lab etc, sadly are not. Some go faster than others, and some have longevity that blows my mind. I battle forward daily, accept my reality better each day, each treatment, and each time I receive my blood test results.
July 5, 2016. My 6 year Stem Cell Transplant anniversary. I think that's pretty remarkable to have survived this deadly cancer 6.5 years!
and helping build my stemmies up for collection
my very abundant stemmies were ready for harvesting
in just 2 days, June 2010
and in prep for Melphalan, bye bye blonde pony tail
Thank you Christine
on the 4th of July
There's my sanitized life saving stemmies, special delivery!
(Normal IgA = 70 - 400, Normal IgG = 700 - 1600, Normal IgM = 40 - 230)
Date IgA IgG IgM
10/18/15 1890 240 < 18
BEGIN NEW KYPROLIS + DEX TREATMENT:
4/17/16 717 251 < 17
6/23/16 1140!! 267 < 17
Yikes!
M Protein: PROTEIN ELECTROPHORESIS RESULT, SERUM
Normal = 0 ... Zero
July = 1.26
Aug = 1.01
Sept= 1.37
Oct = 1.58
BEGIN NEW KYPROLIS + DEX TREATMENT:
Nov = 1.12
Dec and Jan = Not Detectable! thank you Kyprolis + Dex
Feb = 0.62 Ugh! Quite a jump in a short period of time (Off Dex)
March = Abnormal, but no M-Protein number mentioned (On Dex)
April = Abnormal, but M Protein value not detectable (On Dex)
May = .75 That's a BIG upward Trend in just one month!
June = 1.06
uh oh... :(((
Ok, don't yell at me too much... I have enough grief from my family, medical staff and friends. Yes, I'm super stubborn about treatment, scared to increase my doses because of fear of organ failure, and I'm scared of worse side effects than I already experience, etc. (Barely made it to and from the June weddings due to GI catastrophes!)
But I got the message loud and clear yesterday at my monthly oncology meeting, that I really do need to up my Kyrprolis dose. So yes I will. I will start the higher dose this coming week, ironically on July 5, my 6 year SCT anniversary day! How appropriate and ironic is that! Additionally, I confessed that I had been taking a full break of everything on my Kyprolis off week, and I wasn't taking my weekly Dex steroids on my break week. Ugh, I just wanted a few days to feel a bit "normal". Ok, Ok, I learned my lesson. Myeloma is stronger than me, and I have to behave. So no more medication breaks for me. Here goes more intense Kyprolis beginning next week, and dang you Dex, every darn week. I get the message myeloma. I can't slack off, let you become more powerful and win. Not a happy camper here, but my blood work is my reality check. I will behave this month and see what happens. Promise.
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Today being chemo crash day, I'm draggy, groggy, dizzy and just not feeling great, but had a lot happening outside, so I didn't have the choice to just park myself inside, as I should have. Yep, I really should have just stayed inside, because this craziness just happened to me... omg!! so ridiculous, so dangerous, but so incredibly hilarious!
Here's the story:
I went to move the horse poop container, stupidly, with the lid open, hanging down, when suddenly I tripped on it, or it caught on a rock, or my foot got caught.. and boom, over the can went, catching me, tripping me, throwing me half on top, and half in the can, FULL ON FACE PLANT INTO THE HORSE POOP, into the trash can face first! My face got caught on the edge of the can, pushing my neck backwards, as my body splayed across the can.. then I fully slipped into the manure, head first!
I couldn't believe what was happening, and I truly thought I had broken my neck, as I couldn't move for half a second. How I got myself out, I don't know. But I do know this was the stupidest, yet most hilarious thing I have ever had happen to me. Immune compromised chemo cancer patient falls head first into a trash bin full of horse poop! Yep, that's my life! I am so bruised, so sore, so achy. The left side of my face is scratched, bruised, bleeding and swollen. Probably have bacteria growing in it now... my legs and arms are bruised and cut and I have a killer headache. But, no time to clean up and whine... the dump truck delivery guy pulls up, as I'm wiping off green poop and red blood.
Want to see a picture?... I think I should go shower first...
My life... it just gets more hilarious each day!
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Ok, here I am with my lovely facial injuries. I normally wouldn't post a pic of me looking like this, as I am a bit vain, but it's too ridiculous and funny to not post. I also have bruises on my left arm and leg and my back and neck are killing me :(( Sooooooo stupid of me! I'm not very good at selfies either! Note how thin my hair is too..
Live happy, live well, and make a difference somewhere, somehow, with someone or something as often as you can!
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DeleteOh, Julie, I am glad you are relatively OK from this. You don't seem to be able to catch a break. Funny story for someone who struggles with her own "poop" issues and then falls into her horse poop. Laughter is the best medicine (and some rest, Tylenol, shot of whiskey, perhaps!) Take care!
ReplyDeleteHahahaaa you are so right Sheri! I didn't make that connection when telling this story. I deal with so much poop in my life, it's ridiculous! Thanks for giving me another great giggle! Hope you are doing ok! :))
DeleteJulie, Julie, and Julie again. The road on your journey has and is a very rough one to say the least but horse poop ? And head first? A selfie before you washed up would have been the poopy on the cake. Yes your determination is strong, your will to survive and your will to live is off the charts. God bless you everyday as you seek out new adventures, let's just keep them clean. Thankfully you didn't break anything. Really miss visiting with you, getting updates and exchanging stories. Thank God for computers and your blog or I'd be left in the dark. In my heart please know I wish we could hug, talk like the we did in the good old days and swap stories. Now that I have my Bachelor's Degree I owe a lot of that to you kicking my in the butt to get in gear, I guess I was expecting job's out of the woodwork. Sadly, I've dealt with disappointment. My school closed for good in June and you know how much I enjoyed it: coaching volleyball, basketball and lots of soccer and my relationship with those kids over 4 yrs. Disappointing that employer's look for "networking friends" vs education, talent and hands on experience. But I'm still recovering from surgery so I have a little time left to look. Life is funny and thing's happen for a reason: I'm on a break right now because my body and doctor say I have to (nothing serious)yet my mind says get up and get busy. Oh well, I am walking 3 miles a day or close to it. I just want you to know I am missing you, thinking of you, truly value our longtime friendship of 20+ yrs and .... be careful. Take care my friend and I'll check in again later... Theresa
ReplyDeleteHi Theresa! Thanks so much for checking in and following my ramblings! We have so many awesome memories going so far back! We really will get together soon, on one of my break weeks. Promise! I will email you sweet friend. Thanks for your update and kind comments!!! xoxo
DeleteHappy 6th Birthday Julie! Not quite the way I wish your celebration would have ended though with your manure mishap! We have those same trash cans and they can be very unruly with the top open! You gave me a good laugh as you always do, but I'm sorry you are now bruised and sore. At least you have beautiful scenery like your horses and sunflowers to cheer you up! Wishing you well as you ramp up your Krypolis and Dex. Gotta do what you gotta do right? EZ and I send our love to you and yours!
ReplyDeleteHi Linda! Thank you so much for always checking in and commenting. So glad I give you and my readers a good laugh. I try to find the "silver humor lining" in everything. Life can be too serious, especially with all this cancer stuff right! Thank you for all your kind and supportive comments Linda. Love to you and EZ! xoxo
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ReplyDeleteYou know what I have to say about cancer so I won't comment on that aspect. What I want to say is AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA!!! :-D Omg I almost peed myself a little reading this hilarious story! I mean, of course I'm so sorry that happened to you and that you are all bruised and battered. That's the shitty part (pun intended) :-) Picturing the actual thing happening though - priceless. I love you so much my crazy shit covered biotch! Xoxo ♡♡♡
Love you so much Kristin, and thank you for reading and peeing :)) You would have keeled over if you saw me do this. Only regret I have, is that this insane event wasn't caught on video! Thanks for checking in and commenting and being so supportive of my crazy life. You make me laugh always, love you!! xoxo
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ReplyDeleteYou know what I have to say about cancer so I won't comment on that aspect. What I want to say is AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA!!! :-D Omg I almost peed myself a little reading this hilarious story! I mean, of course I'm so sorry that happened to you and that you are all bruised and battered. That's the shitty part (pun intended) :-) Picturing the actual thing happening though - priceless. I love you so much my crazy shit covered biotch! Xoxo ♡♡♡
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