Hello loyal readers, followers and new finders! Have I got a story for you!!...
But first several Dr appointments today, then I will finish this story later, and update you with my treatment status and plan, Radiation consult update, and current Myeloma stats.
I'm baaaaack, and here's the crazy story:
So I Took a BBBBBBig Risk and Went On A Cruise last week!
Seriously, a Cruise! A Big Ship with lots and lots of people and Coooties!
Something I "swore I would Never Do", since my Myeloma diagnosis... but back in March of this year, our daughter convinced me, after much pleading and explaining, that doing this was truly a Bucket List Trip for All of Us, and "we just have to do it"!!!. She loves to travel and attend music festivals, loves sharing her adventures with us, always wishing we could somehow join her. With my erratic, unpredictable myeloma status, chemo treatments and complications, along with my husband's rapidly declining health (that's a whole nother blog.... ), I decided to let her book this trip for us, with of course, travel insurance, and let life decide if it was to be!...
It's a really Big Deal, because sadly, there's just so much we DON'T do any more, due to our complicated bad health. Often, I feel life is just passing me by, and I am spending what time I have left on this earth, processing all the things I used to do, and feeling incredulous we are so limited in what little we can do now... Our situation is so tragic considering who we used to be, how hard we worked, and how incredibly active we both were on so many levels...
This year has been really challenging with all the bad bone news from my Pet, CT Scan. I try to process what's going on inside me physiologically, but it's hard to visualize and connect with the extensive bone damage myeloma has done to me. But when I was surprised in July with the broken rib reality, the outrageous bad (allergic?), fever, extreme bone pain reaction to my first and only Zometa infusion, and the EXTREME bone, muscle, nerve, pain I had July, Aug, Sept and beginning of Oct, I realize I must "do" life while I can.
We've missed so many events with family and friends due to both our extreme pain situations, complicated diagnoses, not to mention all my side effects from my myeloma chemo treatments.... As I write this, it's just so hard to wrap my head around how "sick" I really am... But I am, and so is my husband, and we just don't have much of a life, beyond medical challenges... so crazy to comprehend!
Sooooo.... Last week, I had my Velcade chemo shot on Monday, I packed us up on Tuesday, and Wednesday, we boarded the Cruise Ship!!! Yep, you read right! Chemo Monday. Packed on Tuesday. Boarded the Cruise Ship on Wednesday!!! Me, armed with 5 days of Zarxio (Neupogen) WBC building injections, plenty of pain meds for both of us, and lots of colorful face masks :)) I seriously only made the decision to go on Tuesday, the day before the ship left on Wednesday! My intense, incessant bone pain from July forward, Jim's declining health, and the RISK for a Cancer Patient with a Compromised Immune System is down right crazy to do this,.... But I decided, and we did it!
You won't believe what type of Cruise this is!
Justin, Kristin, Alissa
LOL! Just look at those ridiculously HIGH
but saw these results this past Monday, after returning
from the cruise!
So far so good, I'm feeling exhausted, but ok...
Power on immune system!
Keep me healthy!
Super fun group of Groovy Cruisers
Turns out he was one of the DJ's on the ship, and
Such an amazing, genuine, sincere, talented guy!
I'm still feeling it now...
They took such great care of us!
Ruixuan wound up being our waitress at several restaurants
We became cruise momma and daughter :))
stylin with a mask!
So we discussed the details of Radiation, and whether or not I should do it. At this point, it's really a "palliative", pain related decision. I was concerned when he mentioned that radiating will kill "good bone marrow", and since this lovely tumor, plasmacytoma is on my sacrum, near my colon/bowel, I don't want to damage that either, and risk going back to my "volcanic lower GI days". So we left it as "wait and see", and if the pain becomes too unbearable again, I will definitely do it!
Ugh, You're back again :((
Velcade's coming to get you.
and we'll be adding Cytoxan chemo pills
next week.... gggrrrrr
It's been a whirlwind with everything medically that happened before the trip, the crazy fun of the trip, then back to medical madness now... I'm just hoping hoping hoping I don't get sick.... Jim's had a raspy voice, is contested, and doesn't feel good.... and... I have a headache... and a sore throat.... Nooooooooo.... sadly yesssss, I'm getting sick....
Yep.... I'm a sickie... I bit the dust, Friday, Oct 19, just after this post :((
Thanks for checking in, and I hope your life is full of happy positive things, that rewards you and yours every day!