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Thursday, August 29, 2019

What an Insane Roller Coaster Life This Is

Hello 8.29.19

I cannot believe it's the end of August, and I almost forgot to post today, which is so unlike me . I also can't believe how time has slipped by so fast and I never updated my past post... but yet again,, if I had shared everything that has gone on before and since my last post... you'd get why I wasn't able to finish that post, or even write my update now.

And even trying to do this now, I have a blazing headache, and I'm more exhausted than I've been in forever, still slightly nauseated from Monday's Dex, Velcade, Cytoxan, and I still have to postpone a detailed update because I'm so exhausted from all the fast track insanity that's gone on in my life in the last month!


Well that quote is not entirely true, lol, but close. Actually, I'm too actively involved in my life, because so much is going on! There are times I just need to stop and "just be a cancer patient", but my life doesn't give me that chance!

So here's the headlines of what I wanted to write about, and may eventually be able to!

1- Earlier this month, I actually took the risk and flew to Hawaii for my son's surprise Engagement. What convinced me to go, was his heartfelt comment... "Mom, you're the "only" parent "left"...
2- I don't fly because of my terribly compromised immune system, so this was a HUGE RISK FOR ME
3- This was an Epic Surprise for his girlfriend/fiancee as both her parents have passed..., truly a once in a lifetime event to do this... so I mustered my fears and cautions and went... and so far... knock on wood as they say,... I'm still ok. Don't feel great, but I don't think I'm sick. Just exhausted and "chemo crash sick"
4- Prior to that, and I really hadn't shared with anyone, local, personal, or public... we moved my husband to a Memory Care facility
5- I picked "The Best", 5 star place for him, we moved him in mid July, and it's been the craziest adventure ever since
6- I visited him almost every day, except on my worst chemo crash days
7- Visiting him every day sure gave me a deep insight into those suffering, and I mean SUFFERING from Alzheimer's, Dementia, etc
6- I actually began to feel like a "resident" myself,... super weird, sad, awful, experience
7- Lived with "illness" on so many levels, every day
8- Really felt the difference between what it means to BATTLE Cancer vs SUFFER from a Brain Disease
9- As I've mentioned before, as awful as Cancer is, I'll take it over a Brain Disease
10- Moved my husband OUT of this Memory Care place this past Friday night
11- Hired caregivers at home for 7 days, 12 hour shifts
12- I'm so beat up mentally and physically, I can't even begin to describe all the detail...
13- But as always, I remain so very grateful on so many levels...
14- Soon I will catch up, and really share all this insanity with all of you... if you want to hear the full stories...










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  1. MattAugust 30, 2019

    hi Julie, thanks for update. saying you've got a lot going on is an understatement. I'm always impressed by your ability to write about your challenges...thanks for sharing and just know that I'm thinking about you.

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    1. JulieSeptember 09, 2019

      Hi Matt, thank you so much for all your support and friendship! Hoping you are doing well, and Darza is still your friend!! xoxo

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  2. AurelieSeptember 02, 2019

    Hey there, Julie. So happy you were able to grab the moment and head to Hawaii for the surprise, despite the risk. What a truly joyous event. Hang in there. I know life is overwhelming for you right now, but you are strong and an inspiration for so many of us. Thank for sharing your experiences and feelings.

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    1. JulieSeptember 09, 2019

      Hi Aurelie, so nice to see you post here :)) Thank you for all your support and friendship, and I hope you are doing well and enjoying life too. Thank you for appreciating my posts :)) xoxo

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  3. ronSeptember 03, 2019

    Julie,congratulations on Scotts engagement.You really
    show your love for your family in so many ways.Sorry about Jim`s health.
    Ron

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    1. JulieSeptember 09, 2019

      Hi Ron, good to hear from you, and I hope all is well with you and your family! I will email you! Thanks for checking in! :))

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  4. OsabravaSeptember 16, 2019

    Hi Julie!
    Hope you can get squared away as much as possible right now with hubbies care. Congrats to your son and way to go on being there for him and his fianceé!
    Bernadette

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My Story... How my MM was diagnosed

October/November/December 2009...

Most of my life I was VERY presumptuous about being healthy, taking my (mostly) GOOD health for granted...
I was committed to annual check-ups for all of us, and so late October 2009, my daughter and I went for our annual and very routine physicals.

Surprise, surprise... my routine blood tests revealed extreme Anemia, significant White and Red Cell issues, low Platelets, and a variety of other CBC red flags! I was (stupidly) not worried when my GP doc left repeated phone messages to contact him, and when we did speak, I (stupidly) requested postponement of his referral appointment to the Hematology Dept until the end of the Fall academic term.

Arriving for my first appointment Dec 14, 2009, I was confronted with the check-in sign that read: "Hematology/Oncology"... What? Nooooo! not me... I must be in the WRONG place! And so my diagnosis journey began with vials and vials of blood drawn "stat", urgent Dr consultations, a surprise and painful Bone Marrow Biopsy, a full body Skeletal Scan, more blood tests stat, and then on 12.30.2009... THE revealing meeting... the "huh-what" moment ... the confirmation diagnosis that I, Julie, have CANCER!!!

Happy New Year to me, I just learned a new vocabulary word:
Multiple Myeloma!!! MM, Multiple Mye-what-loma!!!

January - June 2010

My medical metamorphosis began.
I read, and read, and read and researched and researched MM. I trusted my expert Oncology/Hematology team's plan and began my "New Normal" as a cancer patient.
My treatment plan was developed to include powerful Dexemthesone steroids paired with Revlimid chemotherapy, with the plan to be hospitalized for an Autologous Stem Cell Transplant July 2010.

I began living "one day at a time" like never before.
Jim was a wreck. Alissa and Scott were stunned; family and friends shocked.

Me... Cowgirl Up! I got back in the saddle and knew I was in for the ride of my life!
I did well on my initial pill-form Revlimid Chemo, "roid-rage" Dex Steroids and other supportive meds. I am forever deeply grateful and appreciative for all the love and support from everyone in my personal and professional life! I thank all of you for working along with me, and allowing me to continue to lead a semi "normal" life!
YOU have helped save my life!

My treatment trail ride forks to City of Hope hospital as I will saddle up beginning June 9, 2010 for a new rodeo called an Autologous Stem Cell Transplant!
Ye-Ha, let the adventure begin!

Chemical Warfare...

January 2010 - May 2010:
My initial chemo regimen:

Pill form Chemo= Revlimid (10mg, 15mg capsules)
Pill form Dexamethasone Steroids (40 mg, 4 days on, 4 days off!
Omeprazole for steroid acid reflux
Mepron (looks like yellow finger paint) Anti-fungal, Anti-viral, etc for my very compromised immune system
B-12
.81 Aspirin to prevent DVT, Revlimid complications
Allopurinol- keeping the kidneys healthy
Acyclovir- anti-Shingles, anti-viral

June 2010:
High dose IV Cytoxan chemo
Neupogen to build up stem cells for Apheresis, stem cell harvest, which was very successful, as City of Hope was able to collect 9.5 million of my own stem cells

July 2010 Hospitalization:
Two days of high dose Melphalan chemo
Then July 5, 2010 = my Autologous Stem Cell transplant infusion!

And you can read my whole story from that point forward in this blog!


What is multiple myeloma?

What is multiple myeloma?

Cancer starts when cells in the body begin to grow out of control. Cells in nearly any part of the body can become cancer, and can spread to other areas of the body. To learn more about how cancers start and spread, see What Is Cancer?

Multiple myeloma is a cancer formed by malignant plasma cells. Normal plasma cells are found in the bone marrow and are an important part of the immune system.

The immune system is made up of several types of cells that work together to fight infections and other diseases. Lymphocytes (lymph cells) are the main cell type of the immune system. The major types of lymphocytes are T cells and B cells.

When B cells respond to an infection, they mature and change into plasma cells. Plasma cells make the antibodies (also called immunoglobulins) that help the body attack and kill germs. Lymphocytes are in many areas of the body, such as lymph nodes, the bone marrow, the intestines, and the bloodstream. Plasma cells, however, are mainly found in the bone marrow. Bone marrow is the soft tissue inside some hollow bones. In addition to plasma cells, normal bone marrow has cells that make the different normal blood cells.

When plasma cells become cancerous and grow out of control, they can produce a tumor called a plasmacytoma. These tumors generally develop in a bone, but they are also rarely found in other tissues. If someone has only a single plasma cell tumor, the disease is called an isolated (or solitary) plasmacytoma. If someone has more than one plasmacytoma, they have multiple myeloma.

Multiple myeloma is characterized by several features, including:

Low blood counts

In multiple myeloma, the overgrowth of plasma cells in the bone marrow can crowd out normal blood-forming cells, leading to low blood counts. This can cause anemia – a shortage of red blood cells. People with anemia become pale, weak, and fatigued. Multiple myeloma can also cause the level of platelets in the blood to become low (called thrombocytopenia). This can lead to increased bleeding and bruising. Another condition that can develop is leukopenia – a shortage of normal white blood cells. This can lead to problems fighting infections.

Bone and calcium problems

Myeloma cells also interfere with cells that help keep the bones strong. Bones are constantly being remade to keep them strong. Two major kinds of bone cells normally work together to keep bones healthy and strong. The cells that lay down new bone are called osteoblasts. The cells that break down old bone are called osteoclasts. Myeloma cells make a substance that tells the osteoclasts to speed up dissolving the bone. Since the osteoblasts do not get a signal to put down new bone, old bone is broken down without new bone to replace it. This makes the bones weak and they break easily. Fractured bones are a major problem in people with myeloma. This increase in bone break-down can also raise calcium levels in the blood. (Problems caused by high calcium levels are discussed in the section “How is multiple myeloma diagnosed?”)

Infections

Abnormal plasma cells do not protect the body from infections. As mentioned before, normal plasma cells produce antibodies that attack germs. For example, if you developed pneumonia, normal plasma cells would produce antibodies aimed at the specific bacteria that were causing the illness. These antibodies help the body attack and kill the bacteria. In multiple myeloma, the myeloma cells crowd out the normal plasma cells, so that antibodies to fight the infection can’t be made. The antibody made by the myeloma cells does not help fight infections. That’s because the myeloma cells are just many copies of the same plasma cell – all making copies of the same exact (or monoclonal) antibody.

Kidney problems

The antibody made by myeloma cells can harm the kidneys. This can lead to kidney damage and even kidney failure.