My July anniversary brings so much to mind for me. I still marvel at what I have been through and endured, and all the treatments I have survived! It all still seems like an out of body experience, or like I was a participant someone else's movie. And it's still hard to fully comprehend I have incurable cancer...
Looking back, I have zero regrets about any of my treatment choices and I am forever grateful for all the amazing care I have received through Kaiser and City of Hope. Truly, my Doctors, Nurses and staff members saved my life! Even though Myeloma returned a year ago, and I have been back on chemo and steroids ever since, I am so much healthier than I was in 2009! Sure, I have daily physical challenges, but in the BIG picture of things, cancer doesn't stand a chance with me :) I realize I will be on chemo and tackling some sort of treatment plan for the rest of my life, and I'm ok with that... as long as it's buying many more years of life for me!
Interesting to re-read my thoughts 4 years ago, July 19, 2010, midway through my hospitalization at City of Hope. I was struggling through the middle of my battle, both physically and psychologically. Being sick and isolated in a hospital room was indeed very challenging for me. I felt broken, and wondered if I would ever be "me" again: http://juliesmyelomamoments.blogspot.com/2010/07/good-bye-juliehello-julie.html
But I recovered and successfully reached full Remission from all that I endured!
With the help of maintenance chemo for a year and a half post transplant, Remission lasted until Summer 2013. I've been back on chemo since mid last year, and will be for the remainder of my life. But for what all this is, and what I have been saddled to battle, I am so grateful for the quality of life I still have!
So happy 4th Stem Cell Transplant Birthday Month to me! I'm still here Myeloma, and you're NOT winning!
Here's my beautiful once wild Mustang
Thought we were going to lose him...